Water. Lots of it.
So it came to me with a start what I had done last night, well not all of it it's still a mystery how I got to bed and whether I said goodbye, but I made a completely idiot out of myself and had I guess you could say an emotional meltdown on skype...so stupid, have spent all day worried that I've screwed up the one thing that was giving me hope in my life. Well I've heard from him and he says it's okay but I don't believe him, it's freaked him out, goodness knows what I said to him...desperately hoping I didn't end up confessing my addiction cause that'd really scare him off.
Hmm, also wrote a bit of a not nice email to my friend this morning and now that I've sobered up (I suspect I was still drunk this morning) I'm regretting it. It was an honest email but I think perhaps it was something that should have remained unsaid, or perhaps said a bit better...I'm hoping I haven't ruined a friendship also as a result of my latest binge.
Geez I hate this feeling.
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ReplyDeleteYou need to stop drinking immediately. Addiction can be cured. Keep up the blogging it will help. You'll no doubt be aware it is a long slow process and every little bit counts. But do not give up, yes someone is reading a stranger in America. I will check in again to read more of your soul cleansing. May the Lord give you all the strength you need and God bless- Genevieve
Thank you Genevieve it is kind of you to respond and give your support.
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